Disclaimer - Pg 176

   She told me she wasn't trying to kill herself, she just wanted to know what it had felt like for Johnathan. She wanted to know whether drowning had hurt. She wanted to find out for herself whether it was as painless as everyone said--whether you passed out before dying. She was angry with me for denying her this almost-shared experience but then she acknowledged the flaw in her experiment: that the fear and loneliness of being swallowed by a vast ocean cannot be replicated by submersion in an avocado-coloured ceramic tub in the safety of your own home.